I'm 30 weeks pregnant, have almost 10 month old twins and a 4 year old. We finally got to the point of co my mom and even then if she sincerely apologizes and goes to therapy herself dh and I would like for her to be able to see the kids but not until she gets help and stops being fucking controlling. I took the kids and went 7 hours away to my in laws house for 2 weeks to get some distance from her and some peace and quiet..after we got into it badly again and she called me a liar to my face and threatened to take my son whom isn't dh biologically. I drove home all night Sunday while the kids and dogs slept to get home and come Monday as soon as dh leaves for work (at 1pm) she has family whose visiting and th3y come knocking on my door loudly..no call or text just did it. It was a miracle I got all 3 kids down for a nap at the same time and was trying to take one myself and they kept knocking until it woke up my son whom starting yelling through the house for me to wake up and the baby gate for his area goes up until about 6 feet from the door so they hear him screaming, which causes the babies to wake up and cry, me waking up cranky and trying to deal with them I wasn't expecting anyone and refused to answer to someone consistently banging on my door for more than 10 minutes. I get them quiet and all back in my bedroom for safety and my phon3 gets blown up by my mother how rude it was I didn't let them come say hi before they went back home and how she was about to call the paramedics because she thought I passed out since I didn't answer and they heard my son screaming through the house.. she's constantly texting me ho3 much she loves and misses the kids and I and while I was gone it was one thing but I'm home alone most of the time with them (dh commutes and on b shift so is gone long hours) and the anxiety medication even though was just upped again is not helping me like I feel it should be. I'm on modified bedrest and struggle some days to get up and down on the floor changing diapers and cooking dinner but I try to do what I can and there's no one around here we can trust to help out, and can't afford anyone to help. We got married and filed the adoption paperwork for my son so he's more protected from her trying to get grandparent rights. From the attorneys I've talked to I have a good case for why I don't want her around often and we are preparing best we can while here. Dh had a job interview next month for a job out of state so hopefully we will be leaving sometime soon and that will help things. The guilt trips she's trying to lay on me and the bs that's coming out of her mouth is making my anxiety go through the roof and it's making everyday things feel impossible at times. Is there anyway to deal with this and not feel like crap because of it? I'm protecting my kids...my family. And in doing so my siblings have pretty much stopped contacting me as well because they agree I'm being too harsh :/ I have no one to talk to and it's really wearing on me
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