I have always dreamt of having the best family of my own but..........it all changed.
I and DH got along well during date-days but everythn changed when we married and i got pregnant. I had to stop my very-well-to-do job due to preg issues(fibroid related issues). Then the suffering started. After delivery (pre-term baby boy on 23/9/13), I noticed the more that DH started getting even closer to SILs than us. He sparingly cared about our welfare and i was catering for myself and baby from my savings. SILs never visited to see baby even the one living next street. I tried to enquire from DH why? but he mumbled some words of excuses for her. Things got so bad that i was running out of money and was on exclusive breastfeeding, so needed to feed well. My mum came around and within 2 days noticed evrythn and was so worried. She complained of my pale colour now and then. She even extended her stay to check out things for herself. I always told her...DH isnt really getting his pay from work so we are managing up. She would smtimes give me money to cook. I was right within me so worried and always cried when alone. DH was busy sponsoring SIL kids in school and other things. SIL even stopped her kids from vising her brother the moment i came in. I didn't have a problem with that since i knew i never had any issue/confontation with her....just that she doesn't like me. She arranged for a girl she had wanted DH to marry and frequently invited DH over. All that and all that....... A lot happened that at a point i called DH one early morning and asked him to please look at me and tell me what the problem was and that i was ready to make ammends and also to forgive him. Instead he flared up the more.
Ok. Eventually i had to leave when he beat me up and almost injured my 4 month old son. just because i asked him to give me my laptop which he also used most times so that i can give my sister who needed one for her presentation at work the next morning. I had to leave finally. I left for 2yrs and 4 months now. I suffered in trying to take care of myself and son. I had no job with family no so rich. My sibblings and mum tried so so much for me. He never cared and neither did SILs too. Only BILs kept calling him to order and kept communicating me.Now i got a little job to at least aid me pay my son's school fees.
I dont know what to do right now. I love him but his attitude for not caring about us till now bothers me so much. I am not getting any younger and ought to have had another baby since then. Will i be wrong never to accept him back though i doubt if he'll ever come back...or should i re-marry?
I need sincere advices please.