So I'm 39 weeks pregnant with my first. My husband and I are pretty excited, but the closer I get the more nervous I am about my inlaws (mostly MIL)
Back when we first told them we were pregnant, we waited until 3 months because I've had 2 miscarriages before and she wasn't very sensitive to me about it. The first time she made me feel like it was my fault, and the second time she had the nerve to cry on my shoulder while I comforted her about it. So this time we waited a while. And they were excited, but asking a million questions about me being safe, and asking if the doctors were conserned about my history and everything, and saying they'd pray that everything goes well. Which was fine. But when they found our when I was due (February) she got really emotional and said it was destiny.
See... a few years ago they lost their oldest son. And he was born in February, now she has it in her head that this is him coming back or something. I let it go then, and tried not to think about it, but now that I'm getting so close she has started giving us all these clothes and things, and it's all boy stuff (we didn't find out gender) but she's convinced it's going to be a boy, because she thinks it's her son.
I'm starting to really want a girl so bad so that she can drop this. I know it was the hardest thing for her to go through losing him, but I don't think it's healthy to project this onto our child.
I will love my baby, boy or girl, I know that. But I'm actually starting to fear that the first moments of my child's life may be disappointment if I'm told it's a boy, just because I'm scared how she'll be.
Am I crazy? Are these just rediculous pregnancy emotions getting the best of me?
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MIL thinks I'm having her baby Update: page 11
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